She is discussing her struggle with addiction, Noah Cyrus. The 22-year-old singer discusses her two years of Xanax addiction treatment for the first time in a new interview with Rolling Stone.
When Cyrus was 18, her then-boyfriend offered her the medicine, which is frequently recommended for anxiety and panic attacks, Cyrus claims she took it for the first time.
She tells the source, “When I was 18, my boyfriend at the time was the first person to give me a Xanax, and it became a way for us to bond over it.” “I suppose I wished to blend in with him. I aspired to be what he desired, what he deemed attractive, and what I believed everyone else to be doing.”
Cyrus claims that he used the substance to blend in and that it was over the moment he realised it was able to temporarily block out noise and numb pain.
Since the medication was simple to obtain by those in her network, Cyrus was able to experience its effects with little to no effort.
She claims, “I was surrounded by folks who could simply get it by buying it from people.
But with time, her Xanax addiction turned into “this black abyss, bottomless pit,” where she would sleep all day, lose track of the days, and have memory problems. Cyrus’ addiction was at its worst in 2020 when COVID-19 struck; she began to pass out in the middle of an interview and was dealing with the passing of her maternal grandmother, to whom she had never had the chance to say goodbye.
She says, “I felt very bad for not being there when my grandma passed away.” “Physically, I was there, but emotionally, I wasn’t. I’m unable to be.”
Additionally, she neglected her mother, Tish Cyrus, which continues to bother the singer.
When she was sitting alone and feeling afraid, she realised that she was the one pushing away all the people she needed and loved. “That was my great eye-opener,” she says.
Soon after, Cyrus started receiving addiction treatment.
It took some time for her to stand on her own two feet, she admits, before going on to discuss how creating her debut album, The Hardest Part, enabled her to recover.
I didn’t want to be simply sitting around and ruminating in my thoughts, so it provided me so much structure at a time when I really needed it, she adds. “It encouraged me.”
In the ballad “Noah (Stand Still),” she sings, “When I became 20 / I was overcome with the fear that I might not turn 21 / Death upon my doorstep / If I took just one more step / There’d be nothing left of me but these songs,” referencing her experience with addiction.
She claims that “it was pouring out through my rhymes.” “I’m not going to hide my truth, it’s like that. I believe it was clear to my supporters over the past couple of years that I was going through something. I believe the general people could see it.”
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Cyrus made the decision to publicly share her problems because of this.
She claims that she is not attempting to serve as a spokeswoman for recovery or anything similar. “I’m just working through it and finding it out,” the speaker said.
She has committed herself to treatment and psychiatry as one approach to finding it out.
She adds that when she wakes up in the mornings, she can glance in the mirror and continue with her day without feeling bad about herself. “I can take care of and comfort myself.”